Quiet Reflections

Today I watched part of the memorial video. Not exactly sure what I expected but the tears just flowed down my face. My heart sank deep in my chest. I found it hard to really listen to the words being shared. I guess it will take time for me to really remember and digest the service but what I remember and what I re-watched today was beautiful. All the words spoken were genuine and kind. I still miss him so. The wound in my heart is still fresh.

I called Dr. Sasser, minister that married us and spoke at the service, after I watched part of the video. He was so kind to just listen to me weep and talk about Dennis. He spoke such words of encouragement that night and today. He reminded me that we always looks to repeat yesterday because we know what to expect but we must live for today and tomorrow instead.

I spent the afternoon with my Janet, friend and neighbor, getting a pedicure and relaxing. It was nice to get away for an hour. The girls are well taken care of by friends right now and I am enjoying the solitude of the house for the next hour. I hate my restrictions on exercise, bending, driving and pretty much everything related to being independent and a full time mom. I am ready to have this chapter of health as part of yesterday.

Keep us in your prayers as I know you will.

Crystal