Sunday, September 11, 2011
Missing
Today I walked into church with my two girls and something was missing. The same something that has been missing for almost 4 months now. I watched other cars pull up with couples, families, or even in separate cars but reunite at the building. It sent my heart into a million shattered pieces that no one was able to pick up off the floor for me today. I miss him every moment. I wish people would stop saying it will get easier. I wish people would understand that when I don't smile it isn't because I'm mad or something is wrong other than the obvious. I just miss him!
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- My husband of almost 10 years, Dennis passed away on May 13,2011. We have two beautiful daughters Kaitlyn and Kyleigh. This blog is our journey of life and medical miracles. Feel free to read and pray along with me.
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You will for a very long time....and it is okay. I wish I could tell you what the future would hold or had better words of wisdom for you. But unfortunately I don't....all I have is my love for you and the girls, hugs from afar, ears for listening and prayers constantly sent your way. I love you my friend....I am here for you no matter when or no matter what...missing you so much...hugs from NJ...
Crystal,
I know that we all might not understand what you are going through, exactly. While I miss my dad and mourn his passing, I cannot compare it to what you feel. But, in a strange twist of fate, there is another adoptive mom I keep in touch with through blogs and her husband committed suicide about three weeks ago. Her post today was eerily similar to yours. She has a three year old daughter and they live in Louisiana. When I found out about her husband Iain, I emailed her and she said she remembered me writing about Dennis in May. Her blog is http://lewisland7.blogspot.com/ and I don't know that you will want to look her up or email her, but I wanted you to know that she of all people will understand what you feel.
I love and you know I loved Dennis and it pains me to see what you are going through. This isn't easy and won't be easy for a long time. It's hard to grieve and still be a mom, I'm sure.
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